It has been so long since I've written in here that I feel like I should be having some sort of reuniting ceremony with this blog! I guess I just didn't feel the urge to post anything over the past month, which saddens me slightly but life indeed does go on. There have been weeks of mourning and sadness, and then weeks overflowing with rejoycing and love and freedom.
Lately I've been thinking about how much time and freedom there is in my life. Apart from the commitments I have at C3 and Primal along with connect groups and such, I have a relitavely high amount of spare time in my life. For instance, if someone were to call me up right now and ask if I wanted to come to the beach (not likely in this weather no!) I would most definitely have the time to accept such an invitation.
However I have been wondering what it would be like timewise when I do get married a few years down the track (nothing like the power of optimism!) Will all free time leave me! Will I feel like I don't have any time at all? I believe that such a statement isn't entirely accurate. Yes things would be busy, butthe happiness and joy (I think :) ) that comes with bring married I believe would definitely help in that respect. Oh yipes, I'm speaking in riddles! I don't think this blog is going to be all that structured to be honest. What I'm trying to say is that I love the free time I have right now, but I know that there will be a day where that free time perhaps will no longer be so vast.
Continuing on the subject of marriage one day, I revised my "list". I first heard about these magical lists when I started coming to Primal. These lists include the qualities that your ideal partner would possess. Mine included neccessities such as: "doesn't tower over me" and "loves God" "Isn't afraid to be a man" Yeah, among others of course. The idea of having a list like this seems a great one to me because it means you're going to be on the lookout for the person who truly suits YOU. It wont be a person who is inconsiderate of you, they will love you with all their heart! And with any luck, they will love God with all their heart and follow God in that respect.
It's funny how important something like height comes into the equation when looking for a prospective partner. Of course, being 5'1, it becomes Very important. That's because I don't want to feel like a midget whilst being married. But the question that invades my mind is, what if the ideal husband for me who is perfect in every way and ticks off all the boxes except for the height one, what if God wants me to be with a guy who is very tall? This puzzles me a lot. Although I get the feeling that God knows what's best for me and would take my list into account. That being, if the list is qualities that God wants in a husband for me.
I feel I've gone on and on!
Time to change the subject just a bit.
It is still very much on my heart to play music, and musicians like this I like a lot!
Mgmt are amazing and ideally one day I will see them live. Their experimental lyrics and psychidelia are what make my day!
Of course I <3 many more bands in many different types of genres but Mgmt are ones that are above the rest for some reason. I think it's their combination of sound and image that does it.
Ideally I would be playing in a band on stage every night and one day it could happen! There is nothing like the buzz of playing a song on stage in front of people.
I am happy that with my meagre paying paper round I can listen to my favourite songs..
