A new life

So that last blog post was what happened mostly Before God came into my life, but this will delve a bit deeper into what my life is and has been like over the past two years that I have been a Christian.

Ok so after Primal Getaway was interesting. The road trip home, I carried a sense of peace and joy that I hadn't really experienced before. Among all this, I questioned what I was doing with my life. I questioned whether I should carry on with my hairdressing course or not, I wasn't sure where my life was going in terms of living/job etc. I resolved to start the "Bible in a year" and wanted to be with all the Primal/Church people 24/7. I felt as if I was renewed, like I had a second chance at life.

So before I go more into the recent past/present/future I should give you more info on my past, yeah!

2007-2008
So I used to go to parties, because in Cheviot there really wasn't a lot to do, or so I thought. I felt like I couldn't have a good time without drinking so drinking is what I did. I'm not saying I did it all the time or get incredibly wrecked but what I am saying is that my motives for doing it were because I felt like I couldn't enjoy myself without it. There was a time where I mixed the drinks I was consuming and became unconscious and began to be sick, all because drinking was what everyone was doing and I didn't think I could have fun without it!

There was another time when I was at a club with my friends and I was so nervous about hanging out with a certain guy that I drunk a lot and made a general fool of myself and got removed from the club because my behaviour was out of line, all because I relied so much on what other people thought!

I tried marijuana several times because I thought it would help me to have more fun.

I had a sexual relationship with a guy because I didn't think he would like me otherwise and I didn't know any better.

I based my social life on what others thought. My life was revolved around living for the sake of fun and not much else.

I felt empty and hollow inside. I knew there was a void but did not realise what it was.

I didn't know what real love was and put my trust in meaningless flings.

This was my life and it was not life abundant.


I constantly felt inferior to others, and wanted a life that was more "meaningful". The problem was that before 2008 I did not know there is a God who cares for me and loves me very very much, so much that he sent his one and only son Jesus to be crucified on the cross..

Why God is good....All the time.

The moment I got a touch of the Holy Spirit my previously cracked and broken heart began to mend together again. I was filled with His peace and mercy immediately. Life looked new, the sky was brighter, the sun glistened like it never had before!

A very powerful thing that has happened to me after meeting Jesus is my wanting to help and serve others.

Prior to becoming a Christian, I was incredibly self centred. I focussed on myself and myself only. I had no desire to help others.

But now, I love to serve! I has become an integral part of my life. I look forward to helping out with whatever I can at C3 and Primal. It gives me a great and powerful sense of joy to be able to assist people.
My very favourite duty in the church would be playing guitar on thursdays with the Primal group. I once heard a friend and fellow C3 attendee and guitarist say to someone: "It's awesome being able to serve doing the thing you love."
That statement sums it up completely for me! It is a great and joyous time to be able to worship the Lord our God!

My inward thinking, shyness and such as gotten not so bad.

Due to my past, I was always recognised as the "quiet kid". God has given me a sense of enthusiasm and maybe even humour! I am now beginning to be restored to the person I was meant to be, rather than a shadow of myself.

I no longer worry as much.

God doesn't like us as his children to worry about anything, and this is backed by scripture:

"For God didn't give you a spirit of fear, but of sound mind"
(paraphrased)

"Rejoice in the Lord always! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything but in petition and prayer present your requests to God."
Philippians 4 - 4:8

I know that God has a great plan, no an amazing plan for us all and if we follow him we will definitely see the results!

I feel more joyful.

Sometimes when I am walking to uni or doing my paper round I will simply beam with joy, just because I can! This never used to happen but lately it seems to be happening heaps and I praise God for that. I live in the moment a lot more, and am trying not to fret about the future or things that are out of my control.


So there you have it.

I still have a long way to go, but God is faithful to complete a work that He has begun!


If you have any questions feel free to ask!